I.A.M.B.A.C.K

Hey ppls! It seems like I have been to some outer space trip since forever. The truth is, I have been pretty busy preparing for my finals and sit for it till last thursday, hence, you can see corpse web all over my blog =)

Btw, the A-levels annual ball is this Thursday. And guess what? I have been shopping for 4 days just to get a freaking dress!!! I officially hate shopping now and my leg is going to break into pieces. In fact, it's already in pieces now. Me and Sherrie both agreed that we are anti-shopaholic.

And after the annual ball, we will be having our class trip in Pulau Lang Tengah! A wayyyyyy awesome way to chill-lax after the hectic one and a half years of study marathon. The sea!!! *Will upload the pictures when I get back from the trip!*

'Edexcel-changing lives'. Owh yeah, you bet that's true, bringing us permanent brain damage. Nah, joking, it has been a pretty fruitful and torturous year. Fruitful as in I get to learn pretty loads of things in the process and I got to know some awesome and sweet ppl on Planet Earth! I am just pretty amaze that it end so fast and when I first enter college, I never thought that I will be able to meet such ppl and it really changed my life in a way. *gigantic grin*

I sure will update soon because I AM SO JOBLESS NOW. I am thinking of getting some job actually, so I won't waste my life while I'm waiting to be admit by the uni, which is long way ahead!

Toodles!

Get up, move on.

Get up doesn't seem like the right word, it's more like I've been awake, but I refuse to move on.

I was once bothered, but my doubts are cleared now. And I've learned to learn the theory of 'what's at the end waiting for you is not important, what matters the most is the process.' To understand it is not tough, to fully believe in it is tougher.

Owh well, I seem a bit blue these days. Blame the books. Hahaha.

The forever-hectic time is here again, 'The Weeks before Finals'. Gahhh, it's only weeks away and there's so much to baca.
Mau mati lo =/

Owhhh, I miss my secondary school mates sooooooo much, but I am so occupied with the schedule now. XW, hope we can go out soon. Hahahaha, I miss those KLCC trips and the non-stop laughing and the ultimate lame jokes.

Make thou choice =/

Yes, I am STUCK between choices.

Stuck between which university to go. Worse still, I dunno whether I am on the right path.

I did so much thinking these days. I felt like something set me back, something really pulled me back.

Maybe this will buy me some time to really sit and think. But, time awaits for no man, so yeah, the clock is still ticking, the show must go on.

I am stuck between dreams and reality. Sometimes, what you dream of will never be what you get. Sometimes, I still wake up to dreams and can't really tell whether I am living in reality. At times, I really hope I am living in the dream.

Feeling useless is not the only thing I feel right now, there's so much more. Exams is just 3 weeks away, so much to study, so little time.

I need someone to be there. When the hope fades, when the skies aren't so blue anymore. I need that light in the dark forest. I need someone to guide me through. Making these choices is a big leap, it's like you're on your own. On your own feet, with your bare hands.

Everyday, you just hope you can make your world shift for a bit, but at times, no matter what you do. It just stay there. forever unmoved. That's when you feel so tiny, so worthless. It gets harder when you're just trying to smile and make it through the day. Trying so hard to convince myself. So hard.

When the stars stop shinning, when the Earth stops spinning in your dreamy world, it's time to come back to the reality and face your obstacles.

A tribute to the Dusty Olds.

Hello there... Hahaha. I know it's been long, pardon my laziness =)

Owh, I found a foster family in my class!

We named ourselves the 'Dusty Olds' Hahahahaha. That's like the last name and 'lame' is our middle name. (SO, I'm Carmen Lame Dusty Old.) Too bad I dun really have their pictures right now. I should stalk them soon, or ask the president of the stalker club, gp, to do it, tsk tsk.

Owh, we have a nanny too, tze en, she's one of the Dusty Olds, she's like a vampire who have been hanging out with us for quite some time, I hope she'll be forever 17!. Hahaha. Well, so much of Twilight.

This is getting lame, but it's a form a tribute to THE family. =)

I am being ultimately lame. Like what Sherrie said, lame to the power to infinity, which we all know is a math error, cause even when lame is substitute by a number, you will get math error on your calculator too!

Anyways, long live Dusty Olds.

The dawn.

It was a good morning =)
The journey to college was peace, there's only lil' cars.
There's plenty of parking space, and I got the pretty near one.
On the way to KPD, the bus passed through this jungle thingy (where there's a pond), I saw a pair of birds flew through the trees, ahaha, I felt like I'm in Amazon suddenly.


The ultimate Amazon dream! (Btw, the picture above is just our goodie ol' Malaysia.)

My forever-so-dear-iPod is playing 'My RollerCoaster' by Kimya Dawson, a really random song. I like the lyrics. It goes like, 'life is a highway' and 'My Roller Coaster has the biggest stops in town, as long as it keeps going, it unbelievable!'
I love the roller coaster part, it makes sense, and more importantly, it makes my day.


My roller coaster!

When I was walking toward the lab, I saw this fat cat under someone's car, I realise it belongs to someone cause it has this collar/ bell thing around it's neck. It's really adorable, I would have take it home, ngek ngek ngek...

I really appreciate lil things happen to me in the morning. It gives me a great kick-off =D
But the charming morning sorta ended with the bio experiment, I keep pouring solutions at the wrong place and my experiment didn't work out. Hahahaha, it was funny.

Rewind!

Second thought peoples, I think my hair looks like one of the beatles' member's hairstyle. Seriously. Hahahaha. It's good to look iconic =D Well, maybe it'll only last till tonight cause the saloon people blow dried my hair yesterday. So, I'll just observe at the mean time.I'm curious peoples =)


Ahahaha, they look so scary in this picture. (Just like my vampire friend!)

I'm sorry to those who adore the Beatles so much, they do look scary over here.

Btw, I found some sad songs. Owh, I feel so happy!

P/s: I'll find a way.

Hair Chopping

It's a beautiful day to do something to my hair today, and so, I decided to chop off my whining hair in the afternoon.
I just went into the shop and speak to the hairdresser, "I want a hair cut, make it short."
Well, the outcome wasn't exactly the way I wanted, cause it's not THAT short. Which looks something like my previous hair.


This is a bit of how my hair looks like right now, and maybe there's MORE volume.

But I sorta wanted this,


( well, just the length.)

Who knows I might pay a second visit to the saloon within this week!

Btw, I'm chewing a soft pear right now. On a rainy night.